I'm 37 weeks pregnant today--Baby C is FULL TERM! He is measuring 7lbs8oz (72nd percentile overall, 99th for head and belly!!, 60th for leg length). She could show up any day now to change our lives forever so I decided to write a list of Things I want to remember about my old life, when our new life begins:
1. It's not really a new life, it's a natural progression. I don't have to be a different person because I'm experiencing this huge change. I still get to be me -with my loud mouth and silly streak and weird observations- I don't have to try to be someone I'm "supposed" to be. I only have to add Mom to my resume and accept what that brings.
2. Doug and I were ALREADY a family. Even without Baby C. He is joining our family, not creating it. We did that together years ago. Our life together hasn't been simply the precursor for Making A Baby. It's been a good and fulfilling life. This is our next great adventure.
3. Some things are worth the trouble. Like fun. And dancing in the kitchen. And crayons. And clean sheets. And loving our pets. And getting a babysitter. And taking a walk. And asking for help. And travel. Some things are worth short-term discomfort and disorder for long-term gain.
4. Some things aren't worth the trouble. Like spotless floors. And clean sheets (if we're just too tired). And piano lessons at 8am on Saturday mornings. And laundry. And perfect attendance. And being on time all the time. And matching clothes. Some things require too much mental and physical effort. We're not shooting for perfection here, we're trying to have a life.
5. Pregnancy is wonderful. It's been more fun than difficult. Pregnancy has been worth the inconveniences. Even though I had to see the doctor a gazillion times and have heartburn and morning sickness and Restless Leg Syndrome and weird knee pain and didn't make it to Disney World one last time. Pregnancy has been a gift. Even though I had to mourn the loss of my other babies.
I've had an abundance of support and caring from so many people. I've made new friends (Kesha!) and relied heavily on my oldest. I've seen the very best in Doug: his love, excitement, hard work, and incredible patience. I've surprised myself. I've been both tougher and more vulnerable than I thought I could be. I'm ready to meet Baby C, but I'll be sad when this part is over...I hope I remember it.
